OVER STRESSED OUT.

I'm so sick of disappointing news. Everytime I bust my ass take risk and make scarifies there is always something that messes up my plans. PEOPLE the wrong people in my life that I came in contact with including relatives. I am surrounded by dumb people who can't and don't know shyt but they are always talking shyt. I have to take a deep breath and figure out how to make my situation better to get where I need to be personally and professionally. It's days like this I wished I had a real friend to lean on a shoulder to cry on that can give me some good advice and real help. But I don't have such a friend like that but God. So I pray and ask God to help me and explain to me what went wrong and what is my next move. I'm lost and can't understand it. And I still have ??? marks about a lot of things. But at the moment I am so freaking UNHAPPY. I'm trying to stay in control not lose my faith regain my patients keep it forward moving. I know I never did anything wrong to anybody to deserve what me and my kids have been through.

So I put all my faith and my life and your hands GOD. Guide me out of this hell because I don't want to be in this place anymore. When I know there is something better for me out there. I know I need to get rid of all the wrong people from my life. Sad part is I still have more to get rid of. So I will continue to pray and keep my spirits up that this is all for a reason. And the out come will be greater than the pain.