I STAY SILENT

PRAISE GOD FOR WAKING ME UP: I HAD TO CATCH MYSELF TODAY AND HOLD MY TONGUE.... FLASH BACK TO A REPEATED MOMENT WHERE HE TREATED ME SO MEAN SETTING ME UP JUST TO BLOCK ME..... THAT PISSED ME OFF.... START OUT WITH ANGRY WORDS THEN I WOULD DELETE IT..... START OVER CAUSE I WAS STILL PISSED OFF THEN I DELETE THAT..... THE BAD MEMORIES I COULDN'T SHAKE IT OFF CAUSE IT WAS HURTFUL AND MEAN OF HIM TO DO..... BUT THAT'S HOW HE IS MEAN AND HURTFUL.... BUT THAT WAS YEARS AGO.... SO I DECIDED TO LET GO OF THE PAST DISLIKE HE HAD FOR ME BACK THEN.

AND THAT IS WHY SOMETIMES I'LL STAY SILENT.... BECAUSE I'M MEAN BITCH TOO.... AND I CAN BE ONE HELL OF A VERBAL ASSASSIN WHEN PROVOKED.... BUT THERE ARE TIMES WHERE I HAD TO CATCH MYSELF.... AND CALM DOWN BECAUSE MY WORD CAN BE VERY HURTFUL AND DESTRUCTIVE.... SO I TOOK SEVERAL I MEAN SEVERAL DEEP BREATHS TO CALM DOWN.... TO AVOID GOING BACKWARDS I HAD TO BECOME BIGGER THEN MY ANGER.... I DON'T LIKE BEING MISTREATED AND SETUP FOR TRYING TO HELP SOMEONE.

BUT I HAVE TO LET MY HEART OVER RULE MY HOT HEAD.... AND STAY SILENT, FOR A LIL WHILE ANYWAY.

I'M LOVED AND I'M BLESSED. I'M WELL PROTECTED AND SUPPORTED BY GOD. AMEN